Ok, this is one of those times when I have to ask...wtf?? Well, actually I ask that a lot, but I'm not understanding the current state of things. I have come to realize that the universe doesn't revolve around me (a fact that is hard for the only daughter in a Southern family to get), but really if you're going to put stuff out there...back it up, bitches.
Here's the deal I'm bitching about:
Finally tonight around 9pm HI time, I decided that I couldn't take it anymore regarding Clark. I needed to know if he was ok or if something else had happened that had made communication for him inaccessible. Nope, it seems not. I texted his friend to ask if he was ok and his friend replied " Yeah he was just here not too long ago. I can tell him to give you a call tomorrow.". I responded " it's cool...no worries...just needed to know that he was ok...thanks". Now I do get that he may need some time to process his clusterfuck, but this is not how I thought we were leaving things on Friday morning. I'm hurt and I'm pissed. I'm formulating my response if and when he finally does call and I think I'm going to lay it out, but it could just be the wine talking right now. You do NOT say the things to someone that he's said to me the last week and then just disappear.
Gavin called me again this morning from Kauai to talk. It's strange how amped up things have been this month with him. He didn't call me once in July from NJ, but he's blowing my phone up right now. We had a really nice phone call and discussed his trip. He asked me if I would please go with him next year (really??). Miranda asked me later in the day what I think he's up to. I think he's realized polygamy can work for him...lmao! Here's the thing...I think he wants his gf and I to both be his girlfriends. He's realized he can get away with seeing me without her knowing (for the most part) and that I don't care that he's with her. He's got what most men view as the best of both worlds. Honestly, it's working for me right now too, so I'm going with it. Then he drops this, he apparently saw my glasses in the bathroom one day at my house and asked if I would put them on the next time we meet and play librarian for him. I always, always, always decline role playing, but I said "yes" to him on this one. It doesn't seem hard, but if you guys have ideas...I'm all ears.