This is the end…I’m pretty sure.
Well it seems like ole Clark couldn’t handle seeing me with another guy. I told him in the future he may want to be careful of asking for things because he just might get what he asks for and I hoped this was a life lesson for him. We exchanged about an hour and half worth of texts this morning and finally he told me it made him sick to think that he would never be able to please me like that guy did and that because I wasn’t in tune with his feelings that night obviously I didn’t care about him. He ended it saying he just couldn’t do this.
My theory on this is that yes, it was hard for him to watch because he clearly has deeper feelings for me than he wanted to admit to previously BUT I also think he’s taking the easy way out because this is an excuse to end it now and not continue to see me and get even more attached before he moves home. I could be totally off, but I’m usually right on with these things. I called him on it and he denied it. It is what it is and I’ve told Josie and Miranda that this time it’s ok…no tears, no depression like before. I had a great time with him last week and I wouldn’t change that. I came into it with a very different set of expectations (none) this time and therefore I’m not hurt the way I was last fall.
On that note, I really think I need to stick with older men. The young ones are just too stupid and immature. I’m not going to lie, it’s an ego boost being with a guy 10 years younger, but the drama and selfishness and immaturity that come with that ego boost really don’t even it all out in the wash.