Antelopes and Lions

I was driving home from work today and texting with Canada intermittently and talking to Miranda on the telephone and pondering exactly why I have commitment issues. I mean I know that I'm getting out of a decade long relationship and now is NOT the time for me to be jumping into some other type of committed relationship, but what exactly is my issue? Then, it hit me like the proverbial ton of bricks. Once a man shows me his weakness (which for me is telling me ALL of your feelings for me in the first 2 weeks or less after we meet - Hungarian, Canada), I'm over it. You are no longer attractive to me if I find you weak. I like men that keep me guessing and by this appear strong and in control of themselves. I mean I want to know that you're into me, but I do NOT want to know every single fucking time you think about me all day long. Russell was like that for a long time. I knew we loved each other in the friendship sense and then we sort of morphed into our relationship, but he was never super sappy, romantic, over the top expressing his emotional shit and I've appreciated that. He would certainly tell me that he loved me every day and was very thoughtful with gestures, so I didn't wonder but I also didn't have to listen to him process every thought either.
Initially I had agreed to have Canada come over tonight, but as the day loomed and I continued to get multiple texts from him I started rethinking this and really deciding that I just wasn't in the mood. I've got PMS this week, but on top of it I started subbing other guys in his place in my mind and I would have totally liked for some of them to show up tonight instead of him. Finally, he asked the question of whether I needed some more time and I said I did. I told him that everything he said yesterday overwhelmed the crap out of me and that I needed some more time to process and see if I can get past this. He's been giving me this whole song and dance routine tonight about how he thought he had to express those feelings to get me to be into him and that sex without attachment is a new concept for him, one that he likes very much and now that he understands the rules is totally willing to play by them and put his feelings aside. I'm not really buying it and I think it's a matter of time before I have to have this convo with him yet again. So, do I cut him loose now and move on or do I wait to see if he really can do it? He's pretty great in bed (although not hung like I like) and readily available anytime I want some. I like that aspect and he's close by, but my god is it worth the bullshit?! I mean I can buy myself a glass toy.
I'm currently looking forward to my date at Andy 26's house tomorrow night for sushi and sex. He just got out of relationship, so I hope that when he says he doesn't want another one right now, that he really means it. I also hope that he doesn't decide to jump right back into it after the sting of her cheating goes away (Gavin). I find him super hot, he can carry on a conversation,  and he sort of took me that first night. I like a guy that controls me like that in bed...again because I equate that with a strong personality. His only flaw right now is his age, but I can get over that easier than I can some guy telling me how I breathe in conjunction with the tide.
-Jules