A Tale of Too Many Men

I realized the other day that I never really finished the rest of the beginning story in relation to how my infidelity began. One day in August of 2007, I stumbled onto an Internet site for swingers. By stumbled, I mean I Googled it and then clicked on it. I created a profile initially for Russell and I as a couple, but then I was too afraid to talk to him about it. I knew he’d be into it, but I also knew that we were having such huge sex issues that it might push him further away (if that was possible). Adam was one of the first people to respond to my profile and we chatted some and met up at the end of August for what I have often referred to as my sexual reawakening. I was as nervous as a whore in church the day we met. I mean, panic attack kind of nervous, but he was kind and patient and horny enough to walk me through it and calm me down. We had great sex that day and this continued for about 4 or 5 months…then I found him posting ads on Craig’s List. I got super pissed and responded to this other guy, Jason, who had messaged me on the aforementioned swinger site. I forgave Adam fairly quickly, but I continued to see Jason as well. I was fortunate enough to have amazing chemistry with both of them. Both of them were married, so no concerns over developing emotional connections. We would meet in seedy motels and have hot porn style sex.
Jason and I started a hot and heavy fling as well. Here I was going from NO sex for months/years (I do not exaggerate) to having it twice a week with two different men. Now things did get weird with Jason just this past fall. I saw both men until we moved the following April to Hawaii. I’ve obviously kept in touch with Adam and we’re friends now. Jason was different. I kept in touch with him some, but not nearly as much. I still saw him when I would go home for visits. We hooked up in December 08 when I went home for Christmas and again in July 09 when I was back for a month. Then in November, we were IMing one day and he tells me that he has all these feelings for me and doesn’t know what to do with them. He went on and on about how he feels this connection, but he’s married and doesn’t want to leave her and understands that (at the time) I had no intentions of leaving my family. Then, he just disappeared…I’ve not heard a peep from him since. It’s very weird. I didn’t see him when I was home last time and he’s never, ever online anymore. I don’t have feelings for him in that way, but I did enjoy having some fun at home when I went for visits. ;) Although, Jason appears to have gobs of money and I have said that my next husband will be rich and amazing in bed. I may have to consider developing feelings for him. ;)Since moving to Hawaii, I've hooked up with several hotties here, but mostly just for a short fling or the previously alluded to threesomes with Russell and other guys.
I have a correction from the previous ‘China’ post. I’m getting old, so my memory sucks. My grandmother called my mother to ask if she had gotten her “sil-vah”. My grandmother is from Atlanta, so she does not pronounce her “R”s at the end of words. The crystal reference is this: My mother did leave her crystal and so she and my grandmother always referred to her ex-husband’s second wife (did you follow that one?) as “Crystal”. I thought that was her name until I was about 16 and finally learned it was something like “Helen”.
-Jules