The Dust Is Settling

-
I hesitate to say this, because every time that I do he surfaces again with some inane thing, but I haven’t heard a peep from Gavin in several days. Last contact was him threatening me via email and I sent him an email back telling him that if he did not immediately stop that I would file for a restraining order and file harassment charges. I told him that I would not communicate with him in this form and that no further words were needed on my part. As I have mentioned, he has a conditional release from probation, so I think he knew I’d follow through with it and has decided to just let things go…at least that’s my hope.
In a weird “Bros over Hos”  kind of way, Damien has kind of backed off too. He was super helpful in working through this with Gavin, but they are friends and Damien knows that he doesn’t have a chance in hell of being with me.  We were supposed to work out together Saturday morning, but he went off the grid and when I questioned him on it, he suggested that perhaps he should lie low until the dust settles completely on this thing so that it doesn’t look like he’s taking sides. Gavin is also a client of his marijuana business, so I’m sure he didn’t want to lose a client either. He did tell me that if anything comes up that is of  a safety/security issue to notify him immediately.
Damien is weird…period. Russell has asked me to please not get involved with him again and I explained that I was really only doing it for protection at this point. He acknowledged that, but still cautioned me. I’m fairly inclined to listen to Russell right now b/c he’s been so freaking awesome about all of this and Damien’s current stance allows me to do that while not pushing him away at a crucial time. It’s seemingly the best of both worlds.
I’m not letting my guard down though. I’ll probably stay on guard for a few weeks until I’m sure that this has dissipated. I’m still insanely happy to be free from Gavin and the toxicity of it all. I’m pretty sure that I’m going to miss the sex with Owen, but I’m not willing to go back. My plan is to either find new or to actually address my sexual addiction and commitment issues in therapy next month, quite the novel concept. I’m leaving for NC on Thursday, so short of any new developments and maybe a few TMIs, Jules is out for a few weeks.
-Jules

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Online Dating Duds

-
 After the Return of Sawyer debacle I went back to online dating and discovered a string of totally unsuitable and unappetizing guys but they gave me some good laughs. There was a friend of Peabody’s who remembered meeting me but I didn’t remember meeting him.   He was super conservative and a Trump lover but I went out with him out of spite just hoping it would get back around to Peabody.   We had a very unremarkable date in the small town I live in – again hoping someone would see me and get back to Peabody (I’m nothing if not a little petty).   We talked and he gave me a sob story about having a legit crazy ex-wife and wanted a lot of details about Peabody.   Gossip travels fast in this small town I suppose.   We kissed a little at the end of the night and it wasn’t bad but it also wasn’t anything to want to take your pants off about.   Then there was the vet, as in veterinarian, who was so old fashioned he didn’t have a cell phone – at least that’s what he told me.   But he als
Read more

Five months later

-
Here we are amost five months later. Jules is happily married and coping with Russell leaving the island. Gywn is bursting with pregnancy - shes having a boy! -and counting down the days till her hubby comes home. And Miranda, well Miranda is...happy. As strange of an emotion as she can imagine, Miranda is happy. Peabody has pulled out all the stops and completely committed himself to her. It's about damn time lol. Maybe fairy tales can cone true after all? Fate has taught Miranda to be cautious but she can't help feeling cautiously optimistic at the moment. 
Read more

The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same - sometimes - The Return of Sawyer Part 2

-
 So yeah Sawyer and I finally got our practically healthy grown up relationship. I realize how much of an oxymoron that sounds but if you read any of the old blog where he and I were “dating” we were so immature and ridiculous then.  The first night he came over we just hung out for a while and of course he laid one of his trademark knee melting kisses on me right away.   The chemistry between us has always been incredible, definitely unmatched with anyone I’ve been with in my history. We sat on the couch for a while and just talked.   Caught up on the years and how life had been and all that stuff.   He suggested we grab some takeout so we went out and he held the door open for me in his giant ass truck and helped me get it.   As I was sitting in his truck waiting for him to get in, it was totally surreal.   We drove down the road and he started laughing and said exactly what I was thinking – how weird it was after all these years and all history to be out in public together.   We
Read more