Drama Queen

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So, I wasn't sure if I would or could write this down, but it happened and I need to put it somewhere.

I had an abortion on Monday. Who the hell, gets accidentally knocked up by her husband at 39 damn years of age? Me. Ohh.. I have excuses, my Dad just died, the complete break down of my marriage, birth control just wasn't on my list of concerns. Hubby and I have had sex 3 times in 2 months. I was horny and lazy and he was there. I'm an idiot.

But see, this has a weird kind of twist. My Mom had a baby(me) at 39, both my sisters had babies had babies at 39/40. I have sworn since the day after my son was born I would not have another and especially not at 40. Was this irony? I don't know, I just know that when I took that pregnancy test it wasn't even a question. 

Hubby has been surprisingly supportive and kind about the whole ordeal, even considering the amount of money he had to pay. 

The abortion itself was weird, just an odd situation all around and painful. Omg,, it hurt and it still hurts. These idiots that suggest that women use it for birth control are, well, idiots. I'm not sure what I expected, but if I was warned of the amount of pain I don't remember.

Oh and just an aside, we are pretty sure that we ran over a protesters foot on the way out. 

Hopefully, I'll be able to post something not so drama filled one day. Until then, I am just trying to get through each day without a mental collapse. Wish me luck!


Josie

Comments

  1. FfsOctober 5, 2015 at 9:15 AM

    Good luck and hugs, Josie

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  2. AnonymousOctober 6, 2015 at 9:22 PM

    Thank you
    Josie

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  3. Marica NadarishFebruary 4, 2018 at 2:30 PM

    My Husband was so smooth at hiding his infidelity so I had no proof for months, I was referred to some hacker  and decided to give him a try.. the result was incredible because all my cheating husband's text messages, whatsapp, facebook and even phone conversations was linked directly to my cellphone. (worldcyberhackers@gmail.com ) Mr James helped me put a round-the-clock monitoring on him and I got concrete evidence and gave it to my lawyer..if your husband is an expert at hiding his cheating adventures contact Mr James via Email


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